The Call Me Pap-Paw

So last night I was supposed to be kidless, the girls were supposed to be with their mother who was housesitting for her brother. I was looking forward to being able to get some sleep as I had a long day of work due. Well about 8:30 get a text from the Ex that my middle daughter wasn't feeling well, the she thought she had a fever. She didn't have a thermometer but said she felt hot. See when my kids are really sick they all come to daddy and I knew that if she wanted to come home that she would so I asked. She of course did, I offered to get her but her boyfriend was there and was able to bring her. Well when she got here, she had a temp of 102.8! well after a shower and some Ibuprofen and about 3 hours later we are off to the ER with 103.2. That was 11:45 PM. Ih you might be asking why go to the hospital so quickly? Well she has a compromised immune system so at 103 it becomes an issue if something is out of control.  Well some lab work, an IV, some Tylenol and 4 hours...

I have been trying to work on a home project tying in the families calendars. The key piece that I need is a cheap 10 inch tablet. Yeah I know tablets are a dime a dozen, but I don't need any bells and whistles. But the whole thing has gotten complicated and seemingly impossible to complete. Anyway I was trying to use this online shopping site Wish.com (also know as Geek.com). I have tried to order a inexpensive tablet 3 times with this site. Each time something has gone wrong, first and third try was delivered to the wrong address in a different state, the second one "was delayed" and I was given a fidget spinner instead. What gets me is that for anything else that I have ordered has come with no problem, but I order something for a specific reason I can't get it. Maybe it's a sign that I should give up the project, maybe I am going about it the wrong way, maybe its just I am cursed. Either way I am totally pissed that this company does this and there is li...

Dakota attend the Quincy Pondexter Basketball Camp this week. It was a great experience and a well run event. We are looking forward to next year. Dakota Put in some work, she got a few compliments, she had a few blood sugar lows, but she fought through them. She learned a few new things, she meet one of her favorite Youtube people Austin McBoom and meet some NBA player, College and NBA coaches. It was an all around great experiance.

So tonight my middle baby Sierra graduted High School, she has seen her struggles over the last few years but she handled all like the a boss. She worked so hard, she caught up on courses she was behind in going into this year and tonight she moves into the next Chapter of her life. The only thing that I wish was differnt with tonight was that my Sister was around to see it. She would have been so proud, she would have cried, she would have been the loudest voice in the theatre. But I know Joann was there in spirit, she wouldn’t have miss this. Now Sierra moves on to college and only time will tell what sort of impact she will have on this world. The next thing for me is my baby girl that is moving onto 8th grade. My girls are growing up....they need to stop :)

Sometimes I envy Jugglers, they can sit there and juggle all these things and make it seem effortless. In real life juggling many things at once is never effortless, it may seem that way at times but it always has its repercussions. As a Juggler if you mess up and drop whatever it is that you are juggling you can just pick them up and start over. Worst thing that happens is your audience laughs at you (ok if you are juggling chainsaws maybe there is a repercussion, but most of the time your safe). In real life you can lose so much.....your job, your life, someone else's life or you sanity. Ok, in my case I don't really have my sanity so that may not apply to me. I am one of those people that people look upon and say hey how do you do that. Many times its because I have to, other times its because I go until I can't go anymore, other times I have not idea. Yes there are times when I life juggler doesn't even know how they do it, or much less that they are. The later ...

When you are a little kid you are told that dream, that your dreams can come true. And while I can't say that the is a total lie, they don't tell you that most of your dreams will whither away into nothing or haunt you everyday. There are man dreams that I know I have had that have just went along the way side, many of these are because there were nothing I could do or had the skills to do. Such as being a professional baseball player. While I was good at it, I just wasn't good enough. Well that could be said for many things in life, really never stopped me from trying though. Then there are the dream that no matter what you do you can't shake them. Whether they be loves you are lost and so desperately wish that you hadn't or the dreams that you thought you could have fulfilled if only you had made a different choice. Hmm, guess that these could be one in the same sometimes. There are many unfulfilled dreams of mine where I look back and say WTF, why didn't ...

So my daughter started on her insulin pump a few weeks ago, it has been a learning experience. Most everything that we had learned in the 3 years since DX is out the window and we are learning new protocols, new routines, and new struggles. While I believe in the long run that the pump will help Dakota with he some of the frustrations of living with diabetes, I also know that it rough and 12 year young lady that just wants to be normal. That wants to go do stuff like swimming and not have to think about how long she has been disconnected from something. That isn't subconscious of getting her finger poke and a shot given to her in at a table in a restaurant, or with the change to the pump a tube hanging from her side. I can only imagine what she feels, at her age I was worrying the next baseball game, the next soccer game, or who was coming over to go swimming. Even in school I was never one that cared what people thought of me or cared if they thought I was weird. If they liked...