It has been 8 years since my sisters last Christmas. I don’t know what it is but this year has been the hardest on me. Christmas was her absoulate favorite time of year, she lived for this time of year. I on the other had have been turned off a little for many years. Christamas just isn’t what it use to be when I was younger. I think that I only celebrated because of the kids and Mom and Dad. I have tried so hard this year to get into the spirit. Maybe it is because of the grandbabies, maybe it is the my parents failing health. But I have tried so hard this year, but I just can’t get over the hump. I have been emotional. All I can think about is how happy she would be knowing that both the boys would be there. All in all I can think about he my sister and how much I miss her more everyday.
So we are ending the 5th week of school. How am I doing you ask? Well in short.....struggling. There just does not seem to be enough time, when I try to set time aside responsibilities come up. It is really wearing me out. The only positive thing is that the classes I am doing I have enough familiarity and can “fake” it enough that I getting bye with an decent grade. It should be better, but it isn’t, at this point it is all about getting to the finish line of the set of classes. Sadly it is only going to get worse in the next 8 weeks as I have a composition class as well as a lab. I think I will ok with the lab, but the composition class is going to really try my resolve to reach this goal. I know I have other classes like this in the future, but being my fist one and so early in the process this will be a much better test for me. I can’t “fake” this one.