The Call Me Pap-Paw

When you are a little kid you are told that dream, that your dreams can come true. And while I can't say that the is a total lie, they don't tell you that most of your dreams will whither away into nothing or haunt you everyday. There are man dreams that I know I have had that have just went along the way side, many of these are because there were nothing I could do or had the skills to do. Such as being a professional baseball player. While I was good at it, I just wasn't good enough. Well that could be said for many things in life, really never stopped me from trying though. Then there are the dream that no matter what you do you can't shake them. Whether they be loves you are lost and so desperately wish that you hadn't or the dreams that you thought you could have fulfilled if only you had made a different choice. Hmm, guess that these could be one in the same sometimes. There are many unfulfilled dreams of mine where I look back and say WTF, why didn't

So my daughter started on her insulin pump a few weeks ago, it has been a learning experience. Most everything that we had learned in the 3 years since DX is out the window and we are learning new protocols, new routines, and new struggles. While I believe in the long run that the pump will help Dakota with he some of the frustrations of living with diabetes, I also know that it rough and 12 year young lady that just wants to be normal. That wants to go do stuff like swimming and not have to think about how long she has been disconnected from something. That isn't subconscious of getting her finger poke and a shot given to her in at a table in a restaurant, or with the change to the pump a tube hanging from her side. I can only imagine what she feels, at her age I was worrying the next baseball game, the next soccer game, or who was coming over to go swimming. Even in school I was never one that cared what people thought of me or cared if they thought I was weird. If they liked