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Dreams

When you are a little kid you are told that dream, that your dreams can come true. And while I can't say that the is a total lie, they don't tell you that most of your dreams will whither away into nothing or haunt you everyday.

There are man dreams that I know I have had that have just went along the way side, many of these are because there were nothing I could do or had the skills to do. Such as being a professional baseball player. While I was good at it, I just wasn't good enough. Well that could be said for many things in life, really never stopped me from trying though.

Then there are the dream that no matter what you do you can't shake them. Whether they be loves you are lost and so desperately wish that you hadn't or the dreams that you thought you could have fulfilled if only you had made a different choice. Hmm, guess that these could be one in the same sometimes. There are many unfulfilled dreams of mine where I look back and say WTF, why didn't you say or do this, why weren't you just a little more patient.

While I have always said that I don't really regret anything in my life there are things that I think I could have done differently. Would they have changed the outcome? That is a good question, one that I will never know the answer to, one that only fate will ever know. I suppose if I knew that the answer than I would have regrets; probably best I don't know.

Sometimes your dreams are for the one's you love. Those are the hardest dreams to make come true and the ones that can hurt the most. Even worst when a nightmare you had about someone you love comes true. These are the hardest dreams/nightmares to get over and to forget. You always want better the one's you love, and when you can help them achieve that it makes the hurt even harder to accept.

Dreams are the things that keep us going sometimes, I would never say don't dream. Just wish someone would have told me that dreams can hurt sometimes, and sometimes long after the dream has passed.

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