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It’s Really Sad

So I just wrote a new post. One that I think was well written, but one that I had to make private because of its sensitive nature and the offence that would be taken. Not a fan of that, but I did have to write the post in an attempt to feel better.

Not even sure that it will work, there are really only 2 solutions to my deleima and one isn't looking to be feasible and the other, well lets just say is a nuclear option. So in the meantime I am stuck in a very stressful position on top of all the other stresses going on.

Well I guess there is a third option.......I can have a heart attack! But hell that won't fix the problem long term lol
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