The Call Me Pap-Paw

So we are ending the 5th week of school. How am I doing you ask? Well in short.....struggling. There just does not seem to be enough time, when I try to set time aside responsibilities come up. It is really  wearing me out. The only positive thing is that the classes I am doing I have enough familiarity and can “fake” it enough that I getting bye with an decent grade. It should be better, but it isn’t, at this point it is all about getting to the finish line of the set of classes. Sadly it is only going to get worse in the next 8 weeks as I have a composition class as well as a lab. I think I will ok with the lab, but the composition class is going to really try my resolve to reach this goal. I know I have other classes like this in the future, but being my fist one and so early in the process this will be a much better test for me. I can’t “fake” this one.

So I have recently decided to return to school to finish the degree that I started way back in the 90's. Yes at 50 years old and with so little time already I have embarked on this journey.  I did decide to take online classes, mainly because I can't set through night classes without falling asleep. So we are in week 2 of classes, I have already ran into issue with time....lots of issues. But the thing that is bugging me the most is that amount of busy work. Maybe its just my age, maybe I just don't remember it, but busy work is something that I just can't stand. Wasting time on something for nothing or when you time could be spend on something else is one of my biggest pet peeves! What makes it worst was this week on the busy work things was something that had to be done for no credit. Yeah maybe it is something that they needed done to show work, but couldn't we have just done something productive and for credit. So back to the schooling! I have always wanted

So for at least a year I have been trying to figure out why I have certain health symptoms. It all started with a Neurologist, but I have also included Cardiologist, Urologist, and finally a GI Doc. I am currently at the Gi stage of this frustrating and costly journey for answers. So far every test that has been ran has been normal or nothing that is serious or explain the issues that I am having. I have had X-rays, MRI's, wires hooked up to my head, blood work, my jewels felt up, fingers and medical devices shoved where the sun don't shine, and medical devices shoved down my throat. The later one being where we are today. In the last month I have had an endoscopy and just the other day a colonoscopy. Both time something was biopsied. Though I was told by the Dr. that on the endoscopy that if I didn't hear from them I should assume they found nothing (I am not assuming anything), my heart is heavy. A s I set and wait for the results from the colonoscopy, I can't b

So the past few weeks, well maybe months I just not feeling the work thing. It not like my job is hard, well shouldn’t be hard. There are times where others make it harder than it has to be, and some of the people I deal with are just difficult to deal with. But overall this job is not complicated, I am just not feeling it. So those that might say “why don’t you find another job”, to them I say I have been trying. I haver looked, had a couple offers that didn’t work for family reasons, others that just never came to together. But I am looking, maybe at time passively, but I am looking. What gets me is that it is not like I am not apprecated at least by my superiors, or most of my co-waorkers. So I should not really be feeling the way I do. What way is that you you ask? THe feeling that the job I do is thankless, that people that I have to deal with don’t really want me around or care for what I have to say...even when they know that I am giving them sound advise, its just that it

So last night I was supposed to be kidless, the girls were supposed to be with their mother who was housesitting for her brother. I was looking forward to being able to get some sleep as I had a long day of work due. Well about 8:30 get a text from the Ex that my middle daughter wasn't feeling well, the she thought she had a fever. She didn't have a thermometer but said she felt hot. See when my kids are really sick they all come to daddy and I knew that if she wanted to come home that she would so I asked. She of course did, I offered to get her but her boyfriend was there and was able to bring her. Well when she got here, she had a temp of 102.8! well after a shower and some Ibuprofen and about 3 hours later we are off to the ER with 103.2. That was 11:45 PM. Ih you might be asking why go to the hospital so quickly? Well she has a compromised immune system so at 103 it becomes an issue if something is out of control.  Well some lab work, an IV, some Tylenol and 4 hours

I have been trying to work on a home project tying in the families calendars. The key piece that I need is a cheap 10 inch tablet. Yeah I know tablets are a dime a dozen, but I don't need any bells and whistles. But the whole thing has gotten complicated and seemingly impossible to complete. Anyway I was trying to use this online shopping site Wish.com (also know as Geek.com). I have tried to order a inexpensive tablet 3 times with this site. Each time something has gone wrong, first and third try was delivered to the wrong address in a different state, the second one "was delayed" and I was given a fidget spinner instead. What gets me is that for anything else that I have ordered has come with no problem, but I order something for a specific reason I can't get it. Maybe it's a sign that I should give up the project, maybe I am going about it the wrong way, maybe its just I am cursed. Either way I am totally pissed that this company does this and there is li